1st Vlog
This was the 1st vlog that I recorded in this format. The thought of setting up my phone and connecting my microphone was an idea that I had flirted with the past couple of weeks. I was chillin in my backyard and said "Why not?". You could tell I had no direction with the video so I just talked about whatever was on my mind. This was the beginning of it all. My vlogs have been produced like this ever since.
Sobriety
I have been open about my issues with alcohol in the past. At this point everything seems fake to me. It's almost as if I'm living another life. My Rowdy days seem like a myth. In this video, I talk about how I handled certain situations that in the past would lead me to drink. My dog Thunder passed away and instead of drowning out my sorrows, I stayed strong and didn't break. I met new co-workers but the thought of going out to drink with them never crossed my mind. The me of 2 years ago would have been down but things change. I'm just happy that I got through the 1st year and while I still have urges, I'm well equipped to stay sober for the rest of my life.
Routine
I started doing something different to get me away from the computer. For some reason, I stopped meditating outside for a while. In 2023, while I was dealing with my mental health issues, my mediation sessions always happened outside. I told myself that if I ever started meditating again, I would do it outside like before. This is my routine now. Go outside, spend time with my dog, meditate, journal, read, and workout. I have been consistent with this routine ever since I recorded this video.
Being a Homeowner
I mention that my parent's house will eventually be passed down to my brother and I. I'm learning how to pay attention to stuff that homeowners need to know. Repairs, maintenance, etc. These things were the worst when I was younger but now I find peace in doing them. Cleaning up the leaves from the tree can be therapeutic.
My Why
Why do I want to document my life on video, audio, photos, etc.? Why do I record and publish all this content and music but never promote it? These are questions that crossed my mind at some point at the end of 2024. I have been blessed to meet people who have passed down a lot of knowledge to me about life through stories. I see myself passing on the same knowledge + my own experiences to the next generation or to whoever is watching. It doesn't hurt that this is what I find joy in. Music & creating content is my happy place. I don't see it as a job or a career. This is my Power / life's mission whatever you want to call it.
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